Da one
The one, that mythical person who feels like home, have you ever heard about it? I surely did, at first, when much younger, I didn't believe such a thing could exist.Then, a bit older, I decided it could be, I even thought I had met mine, but screwed it, or that it wasn't the right time. With that special soul, it's always the right time, that is why it might take "longer" to meet them, or rather, find them again.
Then, I thought maybe that exists, for everyone else or for most, but not for me, this is a lifetime to be on my own, I thought, and I was completely happy with it, to be honest.
That was back in 2020, but then 2021 arrived, I wanted to believe maybe I had learnt enough and would not get involved with the "wrong" ones anymore. And it was true, I did sort of talked to few people, but I quickly realized that they were not it.
I made up my mind, I would not look for love or use dating apps, I would though, be open to it, cos yes, I did want to experience a wholesome, nurturing and fulfilling relationship, for once, I told myself.
So either things happened naturally, felt right or I'd nope the fuck out of there.
One day, I ended up downloading this app, not a dating app, one to talk to people around the world, a girl liked me, but she wasn't for me, nor was I for her, then, fed up with all, I was just gonna throw it away, delete the account and move on with my life.
And I did, but for some mysterious, perfect synchronicity, I linked my PC to my app on the phone, so one day I got a notification, someone had written me, but I couldn't read it, because I would have to re-install the app, and that is too much hassle..but, you know how sometimes you have this inner voice, telling you to do or not to do something?
The voice was persistent, I gave it few days, I wanted to see if it came just from my ego /ego as the construction that allows us humans to exist on earth/ or was it my soul guiding me.
I decided to re-download the app, check the mysterious letter and replied. Surely this is not like that, I thought, the girl seems 1000% uninterested in any sort of relationship, but she seems interesting, so ok.
We talked a bit, she made it easy for me to find her, with her phone number, I do not use WhatsApp anymore, but again, this voice, I gave it few days, I questioned myself, what was I expecting to happen?
Then, I did get the app, we talked some, it was very clear that she was not interested, in that way, so that was that...It had to be, I told myself not to start liking her, even if the gears were already in motion.
But Alas! life is more strange than fiction, I decided to delete the app again, but offered to talk on email, she accepted, and from there, some nice emails,few days and we were on another messaging app, I wasn't too sure but something was changing...
Everything would change forever. You know how I have my list with things I wanted in a partner? I said out loud in 2022 I'd either meet this woman or just would not bother anymore, and either way it'd be ok.
She arrived and not only did she "fill" my list, she overthrew the damn thing.
It's like, you get much more than you could had ever asked for.
Fuck time, proper timeline for dating, if you happen to meet someone who feels like home, don't be scared, stick around, it might be the most fantastic gift that life has in store for you.
It means you are ready, you can really love that person, love their essence, don't take it for granted, don't get comfortable, always remember how magical it is that this beautiful being came into your life at the right time and they bring out the best in you.
True love finds you when you are ready, I know now.
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