Hot & Cold

 I am understanding that I enjoy duality, the human "realm" and the spiritual, light and dark, in every possible shape or form. I have looked into some apparent contradicting positions in life, and I have been able to understand both sides, because each side has a point that makes sense, at least to some extent.

Anyway, I took a very interesting workshop about the menstrual cycle and how the preconceived ideas we women grow up with, well everyone in general, but for example, I had my first period at 9 years old, I perceived it to be treated as a dirty secret, I really disliked it and the pain that came with it, as if it was a curse.

Turns out the pain, the cramps, are not normal, not to be expected, that is a disorder and it was sad to see we've grown accustomed to feel them and endure our "terrible faith".

So I am writing small notes on how I feel on an app for menstrual period, because in the long run, or after 3 months at least, it will give me an idea of how my personal cycle in, in which days I am more prone to some things or not. 

What a wonderful and powerful tool! I am enjoying the process of getting to know me a lot better.

I also am recharging, I went as far as uninstalling WhatsApp, at least for few days..I must say, it is refreshing and lovely not to have that green and white icon. I haven't looked at Facebook and won't do, perhaps till new year, or even longer.

I do not deal well with stress and it saddens me that the vast majority of society thinks it's normal to be pulling your hair on a regular basis. It is not, we should be stressed very scarcely and for very brief periods of time, say when you cross the street and a car runs by too close, you get stressed, it is needed, you react, then you let it go..or do you?

Most people would be jumpy for a while.

Anyway, I have a bothersome contracture on my neck, it even has a hard nodule, I will just slip away and be on my own as long as needed. Also, I found this very cool app, called "Slowly"

Think pen-pals, of course, it doesn't take weeks or months, but it can take up to 2? days for a letter to arrive, which makes one, at least me, more mindful of what I write, I talk to few people, since chit chat is even worse with that method, I learnt, ahah.

One is quite interesting...yes, yet another "very far from me" lady, she's Italian and totally hot, and I mean mentally and physically. 

I hope Dr. will aid me get rid of this pain, I know where it comes from and I shall not burden myself like I did anymore.