Experiment

 I was gonna name this "das Experiment" but that's a very cheap and easy joke. You know, cos of the movie..no? Ok never mind. I mean the original, German one, not the remake btw.

Anywho, I've sometimes gone off the grid, deleted social media accounts, and whatnot, for some years now I've felt less and less driven to make use of them... Right now you can say I have Facebook, but I don't have "friends" there, I only use to check on local breweries, vegan restaurants, and events.

I do have an Instagram, although, I am now seriously pondering if I will keep it or not and what for, I have Twitter which I barely use, I kept it since it "announced" when I went live on Twitch, this makes me wonder, shall I keep my channel or just send it away? On this, I have not decided.

So, FB can stay, as I use it to check on things. Insta, I uninstalled the app and might eventually just delete it altogether or not, that depends on what I feel and think this next month, or months, who knows how long it'll be, I am thinking 1-4 months. Cos I haven't taken time for myself, I mean, I "have" but not as in really alone, just on my own, with no contact with others.

I don't want to "distract" myself, I feel the right thing for me is to keep to myself at least for a while. Also on social media...when I post something, am I trying to prove I am ok? to show off? to whom? These questions I think we all could benefit from asking ourselves, at least from time to time.

And last but not least, the messaging apps. I usually keep it all muted, except for my mom and the person I like in a romantic way at a given time, why? Cos the notifications feel like when people just show up at my door. Intrusive, so I just don't. The only reason I don't uninstall WhatsApp is that I talk to my mom there lol.

I  have Telegram, but I don't feel like logging in, I just lose the will to do things the moment they feel like a duty, so I won't do that. I also left a group, it was fun for a good while, met 2 awesome people there, some cool people, but lately, I was just not interested in saying anything, and again, if I am just going to keep quiet and not even read..why would I be there? Pointless.

I think I will be writing more on here and reading more too since this is the only platform where I feel I don't "budge in" with others since I am not imposing anything on them, they can read this or not, agree or not and so on.

So the experiment is to keep building my hobbies, this means to read more and watch more anime and movies!, to keep on reviewing and learning German, hiragana and that app that helps you read faster and understand more, I've finally seen how this helps in real life! When proofreading my translations!

Ah also being more mindful, I actively thank and intention my food, do my meditations, even brush my teeth this way, I wanna expand it to more areas

Keep contact, well to the minimum, only when I want to and eventually, seeing what this all leads to and what will come out of it! It is exciting actually.

That was it...

Totally unrelated image. Lilly Love 2 Ploy & Ice.